LIVING A LIFE!!!

hi friends...
This is a special occasion to write a blog as I am now selected in L&T Infotech.
I was destined 4 it and I thought if it can't happen to me.....Nothing can be done by me.
I left a job at is initial level without getting salary for it.
So it was a matter of life and death for me.

I got a buddy referal scheme call from L&T on 22 august. The drive was supposed to be on 14th september.
I can't forget this date as this waas the date which changed all my life... my family's life.
Last year on this very day I lost my father, This was the day I gave "Agni" to his sacred body.
To me he is a god. He is still around me. I can feel him. That day I thought my life is over.. Papa has left me in hell.
I can't fullfil my dreams now. But as the time passed... I realized My papa visualized everything.. He had the vision of his dreams.. He was clear abut my career. My brother's education. My Mother's health. I was not able to stand up and look into my mother's eyes that day. I didn't know what to do..what to say... I was just trying to stop crying...Just trying to stop tears as I knew if my Brother and My Mother saw me crying they can never get away from this accident in the life.

This happened as a shock to everyone. Now I am such a person who can bear any shock easily.. That day I was thinking....What have I given to my family...? have I given any happiness to my father? May be today my package is less.. its just 2.22 per annum.. My father once said Your first income will be more than mine. But its not... Actually.. whatever He earned is more than any one of my age. He earned Respect...Pride.. Love...Enthusiasm...Dignity...Integrity...and at the age of 48 he was as energetic as me...Even more than me..
He once said to me.. This is your life and you won't get another chance to live it.. So live each day as if u are living the last day of ur life. Just Keep moving...Keep Learning.. Keep Enjoying... Just Enjoy ur Youth.. He always anted me to play...to run... to fly kites... to make him proud.. All my life I just thought about myself...cuz there was sum1 who was at my back always.. That day changed my whole vision... My whole thoughts... I changed myself a lot.. Many times I cried alone...But just tried not to..
Every time I faced any problem....I felt Papa is watching me.. He was everytime wid me. Whenever I saw my mother.. I just felt the pain form her eyes. I remember the moment she first smiled after the incident, after that I notice evrery smile of her. I never told her... How much I love her. I think I should. I behaved very rudely with her at times.. I made her feel disappointed. I was at college when all this happened..and my friends ehlped me a lot. They just stayed with me at my bad times. Nobody left me alone. They were with me all the time.

Now one year has passed and when I look at this whole year.. I think I have come a long way, today It may be that I am a little serious about my career, My family, My dreams, I call my friends whenever I wish to talk wid them. Today I try to live each day as its my last one.
I just want to learn everything. To get Everything. To be genious of all.

Today... If I dnt feel I am alone.. But there are some things which are left undone... There are some things which I couldn't learn from my father.. But He has taught me my biggest lesson... "How to LIVE life."


Keep Learning....!!!

Miss u papa!